Dear Diary,

We're human after all. We had a great run there but couldn't quite get over the Doggies, man they are big. I did think about tackling Sam Kasiano, but then I stopped thinking about it.

One thing I haven't stopped thinking about is the Auckland Blues, lol.

Some people questioned me, they questioned my commitment, they questioned my ability but no one thought about praising me. No one thought that maybe I was really smart and saw that the Auckland Blues are a horrible organisation, so I gtfo there.

No, in fact, no one even wants to bring it up any more.

It would just be nice to get a hi 5 or something, someone congratulating me for noticing what the Blues are and could be, and making the right decision. Nah, not one bloody hi 5.

Some say the grass isn't always greener, pffft, idiots.

Look at me, I'm the man and I've figured this rugby league thing out. I used to just try the steps and the passes, chips and what not, that's what the shawties love but now, I'm married and I just do what needs to be done.

I can still do that fancy stuff, that's why I'm so good now because like, I do it all.

If The Niche Cache had asked me to write this earlier in the season, it would definitely be a bit different. Here I am, a dude with a bit of a reputation on a decent cash while the Dragons try to rid themselves of the cash-guzzler players. 'Oust Doust' came along which hurt my soul because he wanted me, he's paying me and he gave me a bit of a lifeline so I'm chuffed and hopefully they only 'Oust Doust' once I'm gone. At least have the decency to wait until I'm gone.

I was a bit worried and we had a shit start to the season, this could all have panned out much differently.

But look at me; I'm one of the best halves in the NRL and I'm arguably in the best halves combination in the NRL. LOOK AT ME.

Look at me, my team is going well.

I can defend a bit now.

I live by a beach.

And I'm playing well, LOOK AT ME.

Imagine winning it all, how about that? I won a ring early on in my career and to win a ring near the end would be choice. Dugan, we need Dugan though and he always looks a bit injured ya know? Like, at training you never really know what's going on as every limb is strapped, he's so strapped that he stays strapped like he's in Compton or something.

There's a few kiwi boys here to keep things fun as well, I even made Jason Nightingale laugh the other day. I gave him the ol' 'what has two legs and drips blood ... half a dog'.

Ha, ha, haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, well Jase found it funny.

It's actually part of a joke that I'm building and thought I'd test it out on Jase. We get ripped to shreds about being sheep, fush, chully buns, sux and whatever so I'm coming up with the perfectly reply...

'What has two legs and drips blood ... half a dingo'

Or maybe a Kangaroo? Man, I wish my kiwi humour was funnier, in fact, I wish I was funnier.

No, no I don't because then I'll just end up like Beau Ryan, he's so funny that he's not playing anymore.

Don't tell anyone Mr Diary, but I'm a bit sketchy on our forwards. They've been impressive so far but shit mate, the Dogs steamrolled us and maybe we are a bit small? Maybe it's not your attitude, heart or effort or your skills? Maybe it's all about how big you are?

That will make winning it all even better. Just like slapping Josh Reynolds the twat will make everything better.

I should have slapped him.

I slapped Michael Ennis and the Sharks turned to shit.

I definitely should have slapped Reynolds.

Fuck.

For Aotearora's sake, please remind me to slap Josy Reynolds.

Ka kite